Singa-pura

Have been here in Singa-pura to keep Piyo in company for almost a week already and my life here is nothing more than having only night life. Don't get me wrong, clubbing and drinking my night away ain't our cup of tea. It's mainly because we two piglets only pull ourselves out from the bed everyday at 3 or 4pm .

Pretty late right?... haiz, I know.

Normally, it takes us another one to two hours to stone in the living room before the 'planner-of-the-year', Piyo starts to think up of what to do for the day. Our 'daily-ambitious-yet-most-are-never-carried-out plans' are always very interesting as it includes go Sentosa, have BBQ, go temple, shopping in Orchard, see geylang girls, disturb Changi's ahgua(transvestite), check out haunted places, make Sushi......the list goes on. And usually when we have got ourselves ready, the shops are starting to close too. Now you see why we always never make it on time and we can only live night life after 10.

I feel Singa-pura is such a nice city to venture out at night.
No car on the road, no traffic jam, no crowded places and nice weather! I must mention here that I think Piyo is so like a vampire or maybe was a vampire in her past lifes that she hates sunlight so much and is only willing to step out from house only when the sun starts to set. In fact, it doesn't bother me too much since I don't really mind going out at night with her. Her company is always the greatest! ^Grinz^

We usually drove around the island just for fun and to travel from one end of sg to the other doesn't take longer than 2 hours.

Interestingly, I realised something from Singa-pura's night life.
1. Ben&Jerry is everywhere! Can easily find it in almost every petrol station and any supermarket. Haven't bought any yet though.

2. No milkshake in McD. They don't sell any milkshake here and I start to wonder if only Malaysia's McDs sell it. :o

And also because they don't have 'mamak' culture here, Singaporeans like watching football matches in McD and some branches are opened 24 hours. During the WC season, we concluded that, good boys go McD, happening guys go pubs, old uncles go kopitiam, and lazy ppl stays at home. :p

3. Highway speed limit is 90km/h (110km/h in msia). Haha. No wonder Sg's cars always like to exceed highway speed limit in Msia.

4. Nasi lemak is green. I don't know if this happens only in certain areas or only at those places I so happened to go for meals; I have seen nasi lemak green in color in 3 places already. Hmm...weird.

5. Cornetto's blackforest flavour is fantabulous!!! Wonder if I can find this flavour back in Msia...hmmm. Didn't really notice this flavour since I was never a great fans of cone-icecream till now.

*Yummyyyy*

Guess I'm going to grow soooo fat here because of this. That's also why we haven't buy any Ben&Jerry so far.

Is 'sorry' an useful word?

Have you ever feel like you are so in wrong in a situation? And no matter what, you still clearly know that you are the one who did terribly wrong and there's no way you can justify yourself out. And indeed you are the one who should be responsible for the whole situation. What would you do next?

Since young, we were taught to admit our mistake and apologize with the word 'sorry' if we ever did anything wrong. As we grow older and older, this virtue remains and we always apologize immediately if we found ourselves in wrong, mmm...just like if we accidentally knock someone in a crowded place, or if we step on someone's toe unintentionally, etc. I feel that to say sorry to someone we don't really know is always easier. And it doesn't take so much courage for it.

But then, when the same thing comes to people around, guess things wouldn't be the same, and seems like it is always harder to bring the 'sorry' word out from mouth. I feel I'm always such a person, tend to keep sorry to myself most of the time, sometimes, even try to run away from the situation. It's not that I find sorry a shameful word to say nor feeling that I wasn't in wrong or trying to justify for what I had done. I feel the guilt, I know I'm in wrong. But, sometimes, I do wonder also. Is sorry an useful word? Will thing change just because of a few 'sorry' words?

I'm not trying to say apologizing brings no benefit, but sometimes, I feel despite how many times of sorry one side is willing to say, certain thing when done, will always remain irreversible and nothing will change because of the 'sorry'. It's like for instance, what if I hit a person's car, then I say sorry, will it un-hit the car? And what if I shouted too loud when watching WC and woke everyone in the house up, then I say sorry, will it make everyone continue with their sleep again or compensate for the sleep time they lost? And what if I borrowed something from my friend and lost it eventually, then I say sorry, will I recover the lost piece again? And what if I put the whole kitchen in mess and I went out right after that, and my housemate got to clear up the whole mess for me, then I say sorry to them after that, will it make any different? And of course, I know if I can be less careless and more careful, all these are avoidable. Those were indeed my mistake. I'm sorry to ppl concerned with the situations mentioned above as those were my mistakes and I don't remember saying sorry to you all.

But, what if 'bigger' things happen? Is sorry really an effective word? And if one does say sorry and the other person say something like 'it's ok... I accept your sorry' or something equivalent to that, does it really mean the mistake wouldn't be taken to heart? Or is 'sorry' just a word to help ease one's (who apologizes) guilt-ridden heart?

Letting Go

想起

回到相遇的地点
才知我对你不了解
以为爱得深就不怕伤悲
偏偏爱让心成雪

我独自走在寂寞的长街
回忆一幕幕重演
我告诉自己勇敢去面对
就算心碎也完美

想起我和你牵手的画面
泪水化成雨下满天
如果我和你还能再见面
就让情意旧梦能圆

我们在不同的世界
想着每一次的误会
好想再一次依偎你身边
偏偏你有千里远

Opposition

For the past 2 days, I have been searching everywhere for the summon.

Good news is : Yeah! I found it.

Bad news is : I found it in my dad's briefcase.

The offence part reads 'tidak patuh lampu isyarat'

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Today, I watched two matches.

Good news is : Yes, yes, yes! Portugal won the match, entered semi finals and sent England home. I don't really hate England team, but I think Portugal deserves the victory. Lady luck just isn't on England's side.

Bad news is : No, no, no! Brasil lost, beaten by France. HOW CAN??? The world cries. I don't want to drink red wine anymore.

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Good news is: I bet on lottery with the number on the summon. If I win, the prize will be enough to cover the fine.

Bad news is: I didn't win.

'Rocky' Day

An unforgettable day indeed.

As usual, I drove downtown. This time, I was craving for Rocky and bought back 10 packets from a shop. The crave started two days ago when my baby sisters offered it to me.

On my way back home, I came to this T junction and my position was at the 'I' of the 'T' where I could see many cars lining up at the horizontal front road waiting at the traffic light. I wanted to turn left. When I was reaching the junction and about the turn, surprisingly my lane was clear and no car was blocking my way. Since the traffic light was turning yellow, as a Malaysian driver, I pressed against the accelerator so I could quickly turn into the left instead of waiting at the traffic light. My mum was in the car with me. And she had started to raise her voice to get me stopped but apparently I did not since my car had already passed the normal stoppage line.

Drivers from the opposite lane were staring at me one kind. Mmm... Do I look weird?

Soon after that, their stare was answered. When I turned into the left, a familiar fat man with white gloves and a big bike waved kindly to me.

What the...

.....Police?

With no choice, I stopped at the road side. And cars at the opposite lane were staring at me still. I must be looking like some jokers by then. No wonder just now the lane was clear and apparently those drivers knew there were polices waiting and they were also waiting to see who is the dumbo to fall into the trap. Ok, that's me.

Earlier on, I saw this picture on kennysia.com during my boring revision period in Edinburgh. I don't quite buy it till I saw it with my own eyes just now.

The words say "I'm anti-corruption

I was trying to, you know, 'settle' with the police on the spot. But, this policeman, haiz, due to some unknown reason (guess maybe I was his first business and he needs to get back to his boss with at least a few victims before he started his 'own' business), he refused to listen to me, not even prepare to listen a single word of explanations from me. Straight away, he asked for my IC and license. I was rather panic since this is my first time to encounter a police roadblock.

1 minute later, he demanded my window to be scrolled down lower. I thought I might have a second chance to settle with him on the spot. So, I had prepared a smile and had it nicely positioned on my face.... =)

Who knows, he handed me a pen and a summon. =(

And he said, 'Moi, u ni serius lar, langgar lampu isyarat'

'ar?? no lar... tadi lampu orange saje. Tak de chance ke?'

'U sign sini lar, OK?'

'O...ok lo.....'

Fine. He was really serious with it and I was left with no other choice. I just signed the summon off, and said bye bye to him. You can imagine my mum's face.

P/S: I wanted to take a photo of my summon and have it posted up on my blog. However, weirdly, the summon is now nowhere to be found. I asked my mum a favour to keep this as a secret from my dad. And hopefully I recover the summon before my dad finds it somewhere in the house. Also, strangely as I find, the summon has no clearly stated amount of fine I should pay but from what I heard, the market rate is RM300! Guess this is my best summer gift so far. =( =( =(

And since I am not intending to let my dad know about this incident, it also means that I gotta fork out the 300 bucks myself. Sigh....

This time, my wallet is definitely bleeding badly! Haiz.

If any of you has any idea on how to get a 'student price' or maybe 'discount' to pay this fine, do let me know asap! Thx!

Deepest Condolence

When time is up for one to leave this world, there will be no warning.

Three days ago, when I woke up and checked my sms, I received the news that my cousin's husband has died in a road accident on that morning. Banged by a lorry, he died on the spot due to excessive blood loss. I wondered how his feeling was at the moment right before he died. He must have got lots of words to tell his wife, his children, his parents and his friends. But, he just had no chance.

I still remember a few years ago, when she, my cousin being the first one to get married in our family, how we, the younger cousins talk about her loving and caring husband. Then, one year later, when they have their first boy, how we discuss of what name were to be given to the lovely baby. A few years later, the second girl was born. Always a happy family of four whenever I see them. The lost is really hard for everyone to accept, especially for my cousin who is only at her late 20s.

Life is really short, no one is going to know what is going to happen tomorrow. I feel we come to this world just like coming for a trip. It's always a one way trip and there will be no turning back. I can't imagine how would I have felt if I were to leave this world leaving behind things undone and dreams unfulfiled. We come, we learn how to live our life, how to love, how to give, how to take, how to bring joys to everyone around us, leave our footsteps in everyone's heart, and when time is up for us to leave this world, there'll be no warning and guess by that time we just have to let everything go even though we have thousands and one reasons to not want to leave. Perhaps when we have something in mind, we just need to do it as soon as possible, cherish the time we have, and don't really need to care too much for others' words and opinions as well as being indecisive, as for maybe 10 or 20 years later, all these won't matter anymore.

Today is the funeral, I send my deepest condolence to my cousin and her husband's family.

Finally, it's out

Results is finally OUT!

Wheewwww................PASS! Thank God! I'm satisfied at least I don't have to fly back next month and get ready for a resit. =) =) =)

Guess among all my frenz in the UK, I had exams the earliest and results the latest.

I'm now in a cyber cafe in Malacca, paying PeiPei a visit and will be staying here for 3 days. Wasn't expect it to be out at this time, when I was checking it in such place. Half an hour ago, I was just telling Pei that how reluctant I was to walk to this cyber cafe under the hot sun and have been complaning to her that I wouldn't have much things to do in here.

But, world truly works in amazing ways and things happen when you least expect it, isn't?

Fancy a Stress level test?

This is an interesting stress level test. Try to look into these pictures and to tell if patterns in these pictures are moving.

There are 3 of them in total, you might see movements in one picture while not in the others, depending on individuals. Ok, enough say, Here you go...

The explanations go like this: The greater movements you observed, the higher your stress level is and the weaker ability you have in handling stress. However, at different time of a day, people tend to have different intepretations. For example, before you sleep, the movement you observed will be much slower than in the day. And according to some reports, criminals and mentally-ill patients tend to see them in rapid spinning motion. Do tell me what you have seen, k?

Finally, I have my hair cut, after 6 months. My usual hairdresser Jeffrey doesn't base in Muar anymore (he went to Singapore last month). So, I venture out for a new hairdresser and under the recommendations of my friends, I came to this brand new shop of which I have never patronize before. Got a girl hairdresser, all I can say is, she is rough and within half an hour of hair cutting, her scissors poke me 4 times. Fortunately, I still have got my both ears with me. Phew!

I definitely miss Jeffrey.

p/s: thought of getting my hair color changed. Any suggestion of what colour should I dye?

World Cup

World cup has started. Well..I'm not a great fans of football but since I have nothing much to do back home; watching matches as well as predicting which team will be the winner of a match turns out to be my simplest entertainment.

I simply have no idea on how to judge if a team is good but I don't mind learning. And also, I find that to bet on a football game is another field of great knowledge to learn. Those rules are never simple! I tried to understand them but seems like of no avail.

Apart from that, spotting good looking players is quite fun too.

And this latino guy is really HOT!!!

One of his best looking picture.

Alwiz points his fingers to the sky when he scores a goal

His Style: Casual but expensive. He is the face of Armani Jeans, drives a Ferrari and wears his long black hair in an alice band.

Gorgeous!

The funniest thing is, when I was telling my first younger sister how good looking this 22-yrs-old Brazilian player is, my twin baby sisters heard the name Kaka and both of them have been saying "KA--KA'' all day long. Haha. And because of that, my mum even suspected that they have been attacked by some unknown insects in the house ('kaka' is a hokkien word for small insects) .

Eat & Life

Some people live to eat. Some people eat to live. Which one is a better option? Or rather which type of person are you?

People who live to eat have the tendency to over-eat and might usually stuffed themselves with amount of foods greater than what their bodies will actually need. Despite the fact, these are also people who actually know how to enjoy lives and have a great taste for foods because eating is always one of their purpose in life. Afterall, what's so bad about having another hobby in life, right! In paper I read today, however, concludes that people from this group is more prone to obesity and might usually spend quite a lot on their food expenses.

Then, what about people who eat to live? Some might say these people will never grow fat since they will never eat more than what their bodies will need to continue as a living object and to carry out daily life activities. So, eating is more like a daily duty for these people rather than something enjoyable in life. If that's the case, then what's so bad about being in this group? No cons? Mmm..not really. How if one day, people like this have lose their purpose in life and don't see tomorrow necessary anymore to proceed on? Then, they might stop eating and starving themselves without perceiving it as a harm to their bodies. Wouldn't people from this group therefore more prone to aneroxia or gastric.

What do you think?

Speechless

I have no idea why recently I'm feeling totally wrong in everything. Almost every single thing I see.

I don't know what I actually want from life, don't know what to actually expect from life, don't know what to do next.

It seems like I can't calm myself down over certain things I have gone through since I came back. Coming back here have more things to worry about than back in Edinburgh.

Is it because human beings will never feel satisfied over what have they already got? Nowadays, what I am doing everyday is basically wake up, sit at home, in front of my labtop, then continue to sleep again when night comes. I'm just feeling energyless in almost everything, not in the right mood to do anything. Not even to write up something in my blog.

I'm really tired of explaining and clarifying things up for myself. Even though my mum had scolded me over something (which I don't even know what was it) 2 days ago, even though more than 80% of what she claimed wasn't true, I'm just too tired of defending myself. Go ahead to think of whatever you want, I'm exhausted.

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Let me tell you a story today...

Two persons standing on the opposite side of river banks, seperated by a wide and fast flowing river. They need to cross the river in order to meet again. X can swim whereas Y cannot due to some previous trauma. X volunteers to swim across the river to bring over Y. X took a hard time to swim through the rapid flowing water. And finally X reached Y. When X streched out the hand to Y, Y ran away. Leaving behind X in absolute blankness...But why would Y ran away? It was because Y was feeling scared of getting drowned again.

Should X blame Y for not appreciating the efforts taken to reach the bank beyond or it's X's own fault of not realising Y's previous trauma?

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Human beings are born naturally with reflex actions to protect themselves from being harm and feeling painful. Same goes to animals. In fact, human is a kind of animal too, so called advanced animal. When an animal is hurt by let say a person, the animal will run away naturally as a reflex action when it sees the person again. Same goes to human beings...

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Love is not only about feelings. It's also about TRUST. Something I have just learned recently. When loving someone, what it takes is not only to care/love the person wholeheartedly or feel for that person intently, but to put trust into that person. To trust that person would want to have a future with you, to trust that person will be there for you no matter what happen in the future, to have faith....

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Sometimes, when one determines to do something, I wonder if one really wants to achieve it so badly, or it's just merely an inner desire of not wanting to lose out/to admit defeat.

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Jokers exist everywhere in this world. Especially those who thinks they are so damn smart and could give opinions in almost everything albeit they know nothing at all about it. Who you think you are? And in what position you are to judge other's affairs? Dumbass !!!

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Becoming a doctor seems like a sin... NO, it's not. It's just my interest, a job that I would like to do in the future. Nothing more than other jobs like floor sweeper, salesgirl, or watsoever....

Please, it's just another job!

New purpose in life?

After one week of boredom, my kind friends who couldn't bear seeing my ceaseless sufferings, had finally decided to end it for me.

Yesterday, they called and claimed that they have found a new purpose in life for me, and I don't have to continue moaning for my boredom anymore, at least for the 5 coming days. My hope was soaring high, k. I thought finally they are enlightened to not work anymore but to give me some company.

friend: 'oi, u feeling bored at home right? Guess what, We have found you a job!!'
Me: ' huh -_- '

Their boss, who owns a sushi shop and a interior designing shop (I don't see any connection between these two business actually,weird) needs a 5 days flyer distributor at his temporary booth set up at a local furniture exhibition fair.

Luckily it is an indoor job and I don't have to stand under the hot sun. And since my crappy friends have gone to Genting for a week holidays, and since I have nothing to do at home, haiz...I agreed to take the job.

After I put down the phone, only I realised I forgot to ask about the pay!! I can't be blurer than that. Immediately, I called them again and asked. The answer was:

RM 2.50 per hour

What the... That's like what, 30p? And given I work only 5 hours a day, my pay per day is gonna be only RM12.50 and 5 days will only give me RM62.50..... *speechless*

我们不哭

Inspired by a friend, I decided to put this song up after I heard of it this afternoon. It somehow fits in well with a decision made months ago which I sort of regretted.

我们不哭在分开的场面 我们拥抱弥补所有的抱歉

没有遗憾今天是最好的句点 以后还能一起面对面

我们不哭在回家后的房间 成熟能让所有伤痛少一点

没有眼泪并不代表爱很浅 而是懂得微笑着让彼此怀念

原来有很多话想对你说，原来以为能留下微笑给你，原来以为时间能让伤痛少一点....原来我还是一样的放不下。