on the last day of February...

...is a splurge of spending again, after 4 weeks of total abstinence from the Princes Street.

when was the last time I spent actually? can't really remember d, seems like it was for the medics ball purpose, if that was it, then yeah, it was a month ago...

oh wait... one thing I must clarify beforehand, I DID NOT go on Princes St. today on any of my own selfish thoughts, it was to accompany a fren's wife who came all the way from Malaysia to live with her husband here until he graduate next year, for some cold weather neccessities shopping.

but, sad to say, in the end I bought more stuffs than her! ermm.....actually it isn't fair to say 'more' lah, in fact she went home empty handed and me happily carrying 2 big bags. haha, u can imagine! hopefully I didn't bored her to death. XD

maybe she just didn't find the stuffs she like. actually she was quite right in the sense that, most stuffs here see already don't really get to buy also, not say they always have our size to fit. one thing, she's definitely smaller and thinner than me. 39kg, oh maan, finger cross edinburgh wind don't blow her away.

" Hello sis! see these? hahahahaha, I know you going to complain on me wasting money again.

haha, tell you what, i'm doing all these on purpose. cause I speculate you'll be going online this weekend from your ulu college and for sure will come and kepoh in my blog. this is just to make your blood circulation go abit faster, people say it is good for heart you know?

oh another thing, see that straightener in the pic?

Sis, you know what? I was dilemmaing whether to buy this set of 3 different curlers at 9.99 pds (thanks to some mother day's sales discount) or to wait for Vidal Sassoon stock to come which is at a much higher price. In the end I decided to go for the cheaper one.

and my reason was... if this set don't work too well, I'll be all glad and happy to let you have it, isn't it a wonderul birthday present? =) then, i'll come back and get the VS one. If it works pretty alright, then I'll figure out something else to bring home for you this summer.

Ain't I just a very nice and thoughtful sister? count yourself lucky to have one. *evil laugh* "

Time to work again!

Today when I sat in shuttle bus on my way back from hospital, I was talking with Jenn and her one sentence struck me,"'shiying ar... (her so typical grandma starting, haha! ), one more rotation n we'll be in year 4." then i went, "yahor, like very fast hor..."

hell yeah true! serious shit, I can so forsee this respi rotation is going to sweep pass very very quickly as all the others, since we're now already at the 2nd half of the rotation. this is our normal med school rotation layout (repeats itself every 7 weeks):

(I purposely make it so colorful so you won't get bored reading thru, hehe)

1st wk: laze around, celebrate last rotation over.....

2nd wk: start to pay abit attention n thought reli want to pick up for the rotation, alwiz regret for not studyin much for the last rota

3rd wk: work abit, still resting... nth too urgent wat, hmm!......

4th wk: OH NO, portfolio fever! arghh...my english so bad, how to squeeze out anohter 4 pages long discussion, haiz.. sure depressed

5th wk: hahahaha, portfolio over, rest abit la, after such an exhausted weekend.....

6th wk: go "oh-no" again! exam next week. start to find stuffs to read, usually can't start, due to slackness and unable to concentrate, played too much

7th wk: serious serious rush. can't do anything. everyday wake up think of what to study, which topics haven't cover. start to find eveyrthing soOo interesting, as long as it isn't Davidson.

haha, with that kind of attitude, yeah, managed to pull myself thru the 3 quarter of 3rd yr. although isn't with any flying colours results. hmm....actually, when was the last time i had excellent excellent results, coming out from exam hall having that feeling I knew that i didn't do too badly??? primary school probably.

hmm... hw come hor?

is it bcoz i'd become less demanding in myself and is okay to settle with lesser achievements? or is it bcoz things juz get harder in life and only ppl with true passion can shine, so don't aim too high?

but anyway, i think this march is not going to be very significant. in a week or two time, you'll see me start to stress out with exams again and start posting depressing stuffs here again,

aikz, wat a cycle!

then at end of the exam, it's gonna be travelling time of the year!! Spain and Prague! here I come.

then after touring our head off at the end of march on the europe continent, i'll have to drag my ass back to the boring serious work and work for my last rotation before I can go home again!

wonder if Mr. Gan can still remember my face by then, hope he gets his com soon so we can start seeing each other online la! hmm..he promised after this general election

coz he'll be going back to Muar to vote at the same time collect his lappie, right, let's see la!

btw, I was talking with him on phone n said, "ei, u care to vote meh?" and he went, "don't vote have to pay fine one lerr" .... got such thing meh in Msia?? weird. or mayb it's me underknowledge.

so, yeaah, this time I decided to start revision earlier, by this week 5, hopefully can make it. to eveyrone who's working for march 14th exam as well, good luck! let's work now and not get depressed later! we've easter awaiting us!!! =) =) =)

Portfolio fever?? haha, what's that?

~~~Yippie yeai yeai yippie yippie yeai...!!

Portfolio DONE! *hohoho*

another portfolio down, and one last more to go 7 weeks later before we say byebye to 3rd year! hurrayyy!

actually it also means, 3 more weeks to another stressful exams.

arh, not thinking bout that, sleep first.

night, world!~

p/s: a little prayer - hopefully I can live life with passion, not feeling depressed, not getting stressed out, not feeling annoyed; is able to face everything with an open and cheerful heart. ^ ^ countdown to home: 96 days.

忙 = 茫

'm too dry to squeeze out anymore english words for this post, alphabets make me feel like puking, arghh...i hate portfolio!

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人总是容易在忙乱中迷失，

架起了防备的武装，

深怕被揭穿另一面的茫然，

生活的紧凑节奏，

时间总有其他的目的，

什么时候对感觉开始麻木，

靠在你身边的温暖仿佛属于上个世纪，

卸下装备才发现

竟然忘了，

还应该用心感觉

hearting respi =)

of all the modules since 1st year, I always dislike Respiratory system the most.

and so, when i was about to start the respi rotation 4 weeks ago, not at all i was keen at finding myself enthusiasm and motivation.

yea so, Simpson became my tutor, with a group of over-enthusiatics batchmates in my year (wei, they're very very enthu wan lor, never did i met anyone who self motivate to go wards every morn with the aim of at least talk to one patient a day, hoho, ganas right?)

it's weird how passions can be contagious and people's attitude can also change the way we perceive things.

or maybe it was because, with the least expectations, always come the great end-results.

haha, don't get me wrong, exam hasn't start yet and my results's still an unknown! what i meant was, because of my group, because of Simpson,

I actually LIKE respi and begin to ENJOY it!

for the very first time, I realise clinical thinking can be so systematic,

interviews can be so organised,

differential diagnosis have to be formed immediately after asking about patient's symptoms,

examination is not only about finished doing what we have to, instead to pick up signs to rearrange the order of differential diagnosis' list,

then, order appropriate investigation to rule out possibilities,

and finally nail down a diagnosis...

these could be smth too simple to be known by most medics, yet this's my very first time to actually understand them... to see lights in so many things i was taught to do but not really knowing how to tie them up. =) =) =)

sometimes, days can seems to be satisfying, even though it's only about understanding small little stuffs.

this is quoting Matt, good teachers are everywhere and they do inspire people. yeah, i guess true passion can always affect people around, in a very good way.

oh actually, I heard Simpson isn't very well generous in portfolio's marks and professional skills grades. hohoho, gooood luck to me!

oh well, to him, I could be a weirdo in the group who always fail to amuse him with jokes or spectacular response to his words, unlike others. and everytime he tells joke.. erm, I can laugh la if really want me to, but to say something in return, err...don't think so la, not that I don't want to, but really don't know what to say. could be culture difference, could be different in mindset, whatever it is, most of the time, I only smiled and keep quiet.

anyway, i do heart my tutor, he's such a charismatic n good teacher =) =) =)

I can't sleep, so excited! =)

Prague and Spain!!!

we're coming!

yeai yeaii! we finally get our easter booking done, after so much hassles and headache. hehez, anyway, i'm sooooooo excited. these two places have always be my dream-place.

Prague with its famous red-rooftop-yellow-walls' buildings, Bohemian's styles of freedom, tasty Goulash and knedliky... i can so feel my excitement. =)

... and the clock's story I once listened in awe, about how the king ordered a higly skilled craftman to make the best clock at that time, and how the poor craftman was made blind later on by the king, to make sure that there'll be no second one to exist in this world....

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Bohemian fashion.

Their free-spirited personalities moved them to mix a variety of patterns and textures for a rich and overwhelming look.

Google says,

~~"The essence of "Bohemian" philosophy is to enjoy oneself. Bohemians revolted against owning land and claiming one fixed place as "home." Their sole purpose in life was to express themselves freely without the censorship of societal morals. Therefore, none of the art that they created, poetry, paintings, music or fashion grew from the intent to make money. It was created for the love of self-expression and the purpose of tracking them for goods they needed to live. Money never entered the equation. ~~

oh wOw. haha.

and Spain!

need not say, i bet you can tell me what barcelona and madrid will be like! Passion for everything: food, art, architecture, fashion, thats Spanish.

Gaudi was once been doubt he's either a genius or an idiot.

haha. anyway, I'm going there, soon, yes, after portfolio's done, and after exam's over, AGAIN. grr.

while i was randomly looking for pictures, I stumbled across these two interiors. aren't they pretty? I want something like that also for my future house...

p/s: David and Matt, if you guys are reading it, feel excited too! we're going to be travelling in a month time. good luck with your revision and our portfolios! the rest of our travelmates, don't think they'll read this post or even know this blog anyway, so haha, I can only share this bits of joys with you two. excited onot??

I need a space to breathe.

Ahh.... I'm home finally! after such a long day. 9am -7pm in the hospital, what a record in respi rotation huh?

and I hate this feeling to bits, coming home being overwhelmed by this feeling of extreme uselessness and stupidity.

not fun, not fun at all.

Was on Simpson, my respi tutor on-call shift for the evening seeing patients coming in fresh and being examined then admitted into ward afterwards. it's when you get to spend time alone with your consultant and his registrar, and for me it's always disheartening...

I think it's just me, everytime when they talked among themselves, i mean the registrar and the consultant, I usually don't quite get their conversation, I must have got serious learning difficulty and speech understanding problems. tonight, antonia was with me. apparently, those two doctors were joking alot among themselves and antonia was laughing along happily. but, i dun understand them at all! i tried, seriously i tried, but i still couldnt understand. yet, i laughed, pretended to laugh along, as you know consultant and registrar always like to turn back and look at medical students behind them each time after their jokes expecting to see our reactions.

what else can i do other than pretending to lauugh along.

i know i'm all lame and fake.

its like nothing else i can do, i couldnt possibly ask antonia everytime what was it about after each joke right?

and when all these were over in 3 hours, i was so relieved, that I can finally pull myself out from this awkward situation, feeling like a stupid dumbass, putting on a fake smile all along not udnerstanding anything from ppl's conversation.

depressing, certainly.

and now, i'm finding a way out to cheer myself up again, like mayb eating out? dun wan to see myself in this way lar, being all helpless. why is my english so badddddddddd!

ahhhhh. emo emo emo. for being such a weirdo and dummy.

p/s: today, a junior and I were talking. he asked me how I celebrated valentine yest. i replied, 'how to celebrate when bf's not here la.' he then went on, 'HA HA HA, dun bluff me la, u where got bf one??' -while laughing his head off- me: -_-

and of all person, these were coming from someone who actually sent himself a V-card on V-day. well, you must be curious how could i possibly know this. the fact was that, when he was buying and writing the card addressed to himself, someone from my year spotted it and spreaded to the world. This had become one of our best valentine's day joke for almost a year already.

I'm not trying to be sarcastic. but junior, it's always good to be low-profile in this city, if you haven't realised.

Medics Ball 08!

Yeayyy, we're all half way there!!! ... on the 5 years journey of becoming a doctor at 2010!

It was the half-way ball I attended at Caledonian Hilton at the cost of 45pds! but it was all worthy, sooooo much fun!!! Count me in for the 5th year graduation ball! I'm definitely going again! Let's pray I can get to 5th year smoothly. =P

ALL READY TO GO, after 2 hours of decorating myself.

and my conclusion was: 做女人好麻烦，好累! seriously.

有时候，看似简简单单的一件衣服，几件首饰，其实都是女孩子们花尽心思的悉心打扮。相信这样的心情男生一定不能体会！所以男士们，在舞会上还得别吝啬于您的赞美！=)

I was so jealous of the guys in my block. they were all so quick with dressing up, even those wearing kilts! Hereby, presenting 3 fresh hot Teviot guys who can get ready in less than 30 minutes...

hahahaha, and James said he was looking on BBC for instruction on how to wear a kilt.

is that what BBC taught him too?

On our way there, we picked up Jenn and we were there on time. Hall was already filled with guests. WOW! everyone was looking so posh and classy with champagne in hand!
Amidst of all hotties, I found my twin...

pearl necklace, full black tube dress, metallic clutch, don't we look alike? yeahlar, other than she looked wayy more gorgeous, being taller, thinner and with long hair~~ =)

During champagne reception was our pictures taking time! How many times we get to dress up like these and attend a glamourous ball in med school right?

Next was being seated in the dining hall. I so like the atmosphere and deco in there. The settings was an ace, something I always thought will only come true in movies or dreams.

while waiting for the dinner to serve, we tablemates took a quick pic. apparently the waiter that took this for us had mild hand tremor. see, we all looked so blur.

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Starter: tomato soup

me and Mr. Flatmate

I definitely look uglieee in the following pic, the only reason I put it up is to show off my bracelet. hehehe.

Main coursE: erm.... let me recall the name, corn-fed chicken breast, with thyme flavoured juice, risotto and aubergine or tomato. it was kinda good! but only if it comes in bigger portion, hahaha. my appetite is growing! tsk tsk.

After the main course, Jenn and I moved ourselves upstairs to the powder room. and on the way, we met Mr. Piano...

hahaha, I know you gonna say something.

next on, met Stephanie the hottie!!! So so so pretty, do u believe I used to stare at her in awe during first year PBL... haha, sounds lesbo right?

and Kat Joseph's definitely another hottie in med sch!

Dessert that came next was a quick step to heaven! chocolate mousse with vanilla ice cream. YUMMMMMMIEEEE! Too bad I have no pic with me. (will upload later on when Clem send it to me)

So, what's next??

It was the fun fun fun ceilidh time! another round of pics taking with newcomers who came in only for the after-party!

Ceilidth是苏格兰的传统舞蹈。很难想象在先进发达的英国，苏格兰民间竟然还流行着这样朴实的舞步。苏格兰人一定是个简单快乐的民族。当欢欣的苏式音乐开始响起，一大群男女分成两个排列，互相对面，轻松的打着手拍子，脚踏着节奏，跟着愉快的音符开始勾着手，交替的舞蹈。男士们穿的并不是西装长裤，而是唯独苏格兰才有的格子布裙。而女孩子也都把脚上的高跟鞋拿了下来，赤着的双脚，漂亮的晚装...顿时让我有错身在中古世纪，仿佛猎人们开心的领着准备过冬的猎物回到村子，大家兴高采烈的围着火堆手舞足蹈的感觉。

alamak, we both looked too ... aikz. no comment lar. =P

after a fantabulous night, finally got home at 1-ish. so famished and exhausted! but it was reli all fun fun fun fun. last few bits of camwhore before changing back to sleeping clothes..

Mr. Neighbour

Fellow flatmates

and my most favourite of the night!~

okie! time to sleep. tomorrow is all about getting back into the real world with the usual hospital and lectures routine! all in all, this weekend was double triplet quadraplet of fun!!!

Chinese New Year is here finally...

and I'm now happily listening to the happy-merry-jovial cny song...

hello people!!!

恭喜发财，万事如意，年年有余，心想事成!!!

yu-sang from buddhist soc potluck!

This year is probably the year with the most FOOD!

Look:

CNY 1st day, 1st dish: lobster mee

Starting from reunion dinner, we flatmates had Hot Pot - two soup bases, lots of fishballs, seafood esp sotong ( my favourite!), mees, etc. 50 pds in total! ganas! Tell you wat, Next time, if you have only 50 pds in hand, and you thought of getting rid of a person, don't bother hiring someone to kill for you (well, 50pds wun be enuf anyway). Just buy food! Lotsa food! throw at that person, can at least get that person well-injured. Thats when we realised how much food we can get with 50 quids, we both were sooooo exhausted to walk home from the chinese store. okok, rants aside.

On a happier note, it was a good gathering, probably the last home-based hot pot we have, as next yr all of us will be living with someone elses already.

Next day, CNY 1st DaY! Instead of angpows, card games, we had a 3rd-year-dinner in the Saigon. Sama (my Maldive's classmate), Suz, Me

Food was niCe! Too bad i got no pics with me now. recently I'd give up taking my own picture - so much of the after-effect of having to grow rounder n rounder on face.

See, smile becomes less confident, eyes getting smaller too.

Okok... back to the dinner, yea! so we had lobster, fish, chicken, rice, oysters, etc.

and the only imperfection was no dessert!! what a pity.

Also, another highlight of the night: Some of my classmates came in cheongsam! Oddly, to own a cheongsam has never occur to me. Probably bcoz of my aunty's brainwash for years, since young she kept telling me cheongsam is what she's going to wear on my dearie cousin's wedding occasion. Makes me think it's an aunty thing, or maybe tai tai la. But theirs on the dinner was cool! never thought cheongsam can look young too. =)

Fatt-choi (hair-look-alike-vege, to bring wealth) with oyster

Today, CNY 2Nd day. Lecture resumes. and I WENT! Got my 2nd medic hoodies, in RED! I thought it suits cny theme. =) Went shopping with Rachel afterwards, for medics ball accessories. She's probably the best person in Edin I can find, to shop with lah. I ended up buying myself so many unrelated stuffs, at least 4 pairs of earrings and some bracelets. Those newly bought accessories kept me well occupied for a few hours, simply by organising and rearranging them. hmm...I think I'm really a earring person. Staring at them can make me happy, somehow. But again, I have no idea myself if I'll actually wear them at all. Haha, but who cares!

see that black one? i so lurve it!

Tonight, we had buddhist potluck too. one of the best potluck so far, in terms of food varieties. everything taste so nice!! got yu sang, dimsum, duck, sushi, char-siu, chicken, dong fen, etc etc. To those that din come, haha, be regret! yummmieee! ^_^

LOU AH!!! as high as we can .... let's all be prosperous this year!

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On a melancholic note, something unhappy happened today. I wasn't quite happy obviously. I think I'll not blog about it for now and leave it till next time, if I can still remember by then. *_* not good to spoil the cny mood afterall right?

Tomorrow, cny 3rd day. Medics ball! My first ball ever. and it's to signify that we'd come half way through the journey in the 5 years med school. So erm, another 2 and a half year more before graduation. To be frank, initially I was quite up to it. But today, I lost that mood. Strangely, it suddenly occur to me that attending it seems more like a task to complete rather than something am looking forward to. maybe bcoz these few days had been busy with gatherings, mere exhaustion. my stamina is declining!!! I shall see how it goes tomorrow...

as I blog along, I can hear my stomach starts to rumble. going upstairs to eat pineapple tart Pei and me made yest. hehe, thats all for now. HAPPY CNY everyone!!!

p/s: pictures courtesy from facebook. thanks Jenn, hehe!