Fun fun ridé.... of life surprises!

Last plane ride home, it took 9 hours to transit in Dubai., and it was also when I came to know this sweet chinese-malay mixed gal. so much thanks to her, if not 9 hours of plain waiting would probably kill me!

today... 6 months later, it was another plane ride home. after such a long long strenuous time in the Burghhh, having to sleep eat breathe davidson for so long. thank god it's all over. pass or fail? mmm... no comment, just gotta wait till Monday and see. fingercrossed!

... just got down from plane not long ago. still jetlagging...that's also the reason why bed isn't owning me now.

also another thing... got something quite random to share! ;) ;) ;)

this time around, instead of sweet pretty lady in Dubai, it was a cool cute guy in Heathrow today! haha. probably it was a good rewards god gave after I'd myself crying so badly the day before, after coming out from the Osca exams. if you duno wat osca is, go to this angchoonseong.blogspot.com, that guy'd came up with some brainy definitions for it, go n have a good laugh!

so... it was a fun fun ride... hehe...from sitting on the terminal transit bus, to custom scans, to border control, to the boarding gates... talk that lasted for almost an hour was a good time, with someone so nice to look at, so filled with spontaneous humors and so intellectual or perhaps crappily philosophical at the same time... how i wish the transit time was longer. =P

he's definitely one very random fella and blur at the same time. duno why, from the beginning of the conversation, he ownself assumed i'm a sporean like him. so he went on talking about their local hangout places, their local foods, their NS army experience, his fun times in Switzerland high school, stupid jay chow karaoke sessions in st. andrews with his bunch of chinese speaking frens... etc etc. I was simply in awe all the time, considering we're strangers to each other, yet he just talk and share so much, as if we're old kindy frens who haven't been seeing each other for the past 10 yrs!!

I used to think good looking guys are more reserved, erm...more of the type waiting for people to approach them, unless the gal is much hotter than average, worth of his ego-let-going. hmmm... seems like this guy proves otherwise. not sure it's because of his angmoh-nized attitude having to grow up in Switz during his teen age or he's just generally very friendly, funny and humble, oR OR... neither that, he's a GAY! hahahha... *laugh till roll off chair n climb back again*

duno y... he sort of reminds me of those ABCs we always see in HK dramas, you know that type, after living abroad for so long, come home for a hols with the angmoh types of straightforward yet kind n helpful attitude.. keen to talk to people around. haha!

of all the conversations, I thought the best part was.... like all other Sporeans, he tried to tell me that JB is a very dodgy place to go and always filled with robbers and kidnappers, so better avoid it during my hols stay... moreover johor in general a not very good place to live in. (still happily assuming I'm sporean.. haha!)

and soon after that, before we board onto seperate planes leaving for Sg, he then found out my flight was connecting in Sg to KL... then realised I'm actually a MALAYSIAN living in the dodgy Johor... then u can imagine his reaction.... blur+innocent+sorry...hahahaha! very cute though.

all in all... very interesting.... very random... very amusing! life's full of surprises! whoever you're (din quite get his name)... nice talking to you, have a good summer hols! take care. xxx

你会爱上这里！

Beijing's Official Olympic MV.

nice song! me likey!

oh oh!! don't forget to keep an eye for hot eye candies! like... Lee Hom (look at his smile at the camera.... and that heart felt sign, awww... my heart melts too! :) ), He Run Dong (hotness!), Zoe Yung (din realise she can look so preettay lar!), Nicholas Tse (still very good looking after Mrs. Tse's scandal, =D), Karen Mok (sexy!), Sun YanZi (sweett! ei yingjie: look like u lar. XD).

haha. that's probably enough of the bimbotic me.

the MAN in my life had been talking about visiting China for as long as i can remember, too bad work had always been too busy. never mind... pa, since you now retired already, let's go!

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May everything go well and all the best for ALL of us ---> Osce tmr!!

night world!~ ;)

Untitled

Kill me pls.

Just take a knife and kill me.

for someone as failure-to-prioritise as me, for sure I deserve a big stab.

How lar? Osce's gonna be tomorrow, but still.... the urgent and emergency mode hasn't been turned on yet.

for one moment, my instinct told me, hey, Cardio: those valves, murmurs, IE, ... that time exams you skipped and din study wan leh. better go read up. oh, okie! then read read read, half way, see the word pulmonary hypertension... ah! maybe I should read about Respi too...COPD, astham, PE, how to treat leh?

then on i go, flipping to respi pages... read read read... ei?? got so many bacterias nv learn b4 wan... ok, nvm. lets do some drugs and microbiology. hmm. this one have to sit in front of laptop and read online Edrug page.

Read read read --> msn --> read blogs --> sembang sembang --> read some news...

ARghh!! like that how can??

come on nana hey, you need to read book okayyyyy!

defib defib...they say sure come out wan. ok, i'm going to read that and not get distracted anymore. gO gO GO!

Exam Emo

You know how sometimes when you try to talk,

your presence is being disregarded totally as if you're indifferent from the bacterias in the air...

and your words just vanish into the air and get no response at all...

and... what if things like these repeat itself over and over again?

well. just like what Adelynn said,


"that kind of thing sorts of makes you feel so disconnected from the other person, and then you slowly learn to live your live independent of them. and that person's presence, it becomes merely a physical presence."


.... so well said, couldn't agree more.

yah in fact, your presence too, will become just another physical presence to them, or maybe that was already the case.

perhaps initially when things begin to turn this way, you would still take initiative to work things out, with the intention that maybe it's fault at your own part. But what if attempts made again and again, with hopes that'd always been greeted with disappointments... until one point, you begin to realise not living like your own self, just isn't worth the effort anymore.

... although deep inside, you'd probably still wish things could be indifferent from the good old days...

so you begin to turn yourself away. distance begin to form. or when there are circumstances where avoidance is simply impossible, keeping silence is the best way out... in order to minimize the 'stupid' feelings you might get in return whenever you try to talk.

it's sad to gradually see people who used to be close, no longer share their grandmother stories, laugh together, or ermm.... even talk normally. and things they do, would begin to appear incomprehensible to you, as well as vice versa.

well.... hmmm. a different side of life I gotta learn to accept.

.... back to my Mr. Davidson.

Wish Me Luck!

GI is OVER!~

Yes, it's such a celebrate-able day!

...... only if 4 days later, we don't have 2 more MAJOR MAJOR FINALS coming.

Next up:

Wed -OSCE --------->

Thurs - OSCA! --------------------------->

OSCE have to examine patients, talk properly to them, take blood, check glucose, do iv drip bla bla bla... certainly under-prepared... I still pray hard I don't screw up big time.

whereas OSCA - the killer one! I heard it's 200 computer generated questions that we've to put in our judgement within 90 minutes. No comment since this is gonna be first time experience.

Immunity is definitely growing stronger in me than ever where I've reached a point, fear doesn't work on me anymore. At times like this, when serious serious revision's needed, I can easily sit back, relax, watch tvb, chatting, cooking and do all the irrelevant stuff, as long as they've got nothing to do with books.

so folks, don't you just have to wish me luck ;)

and I'm now 40 pounds richer... ;) ;)

Reminder: Bimbotic post ahead

I'm such a hypocrite!

Despite the earlier promise that the dress with the higher votes will be worn to the wedding, guess what I did today...

I'd returned the No.2.

To be frank, I love that piece to bits. Yet, sadly it doesn't appear nice on me anymore, as compared to the first one, when I pulled it on today for one last time before decision had to be made. I looked so much like a pear in it, with extremely hypertrophied gluteus muscles and prominently protruding anterior superior iliac spine.

Seriously I think, prolonged sitting in chair is the main culprit! Nowadays sleep eat breathe all Davidson. Haven't grown roots onto chair only. And for that, butt muscles get compressed continuously and eventually grow sideward, rendering the widened hip appearance. Just exactly a pear. How sad. >.<

Oh and and! did I mention that when I went on Princes St to refund the dress, in return I saw so so so many nice dresses. Hoho. thank god I didn't spend unneccessarily, although they were VERY tempting!

okay okay, back to study~~ and THANKS for all the votes, u kind caring frens! =D

May we pass all the exams and do well n dun have to glue to chairs anymore!

KUDOS to all MaMas~~

As usual, over the phone, Mama was telling me her 'picks of the day' from the local newspaper she read...

that's why sometimes news back home like, who got raped lah, which shop kena burglary lah, which healthy food is recommended by some professors lah, I can still know.

There's always something weird about mother's thinkings. For some reasons, they will always think that whatever being reported in the paper, someday the same thing will happen to their children too. Thats why even though I'm technically a thousand miles away, if SinChew Daily reported on some ladies' bags got snatched by mat rempits, I'll still get warnings like, "Don't carry handbag go out okay?" "Beware of motorbikers hor!", "Don't walk on street alone har". That's mum.

Today, something she mentioned caught my attention. Right after put down the phone, immediately I went google for pictures.

and so far I've only got these two.

See that baby in the picture? This 13-day-old baby girl, was rescued from the recent China earthquake, 5 days after the shock.

When the troops found her, she laid quietly in her mother's chest and was sucking milk from the breast of the deceased mum.

According to the troops, her mum - this very young lady was found lifeless carrying the baby with both hands and head looking downwards. Her blouse was lifted and she was breastfeeding her baby, which later on allowed the prolonged 5 days survival of the baby without any starvation.

They also said that, from her curled body position, she was believed to be deliberately shielding the baby from the strong force of the quake.

When this babygirl was taken away from her mum's deadbody, she started crying badly.

This gynaecologist, who's a volunteer worker at the site, couldn't hold back her tears when she saw the shocking scene. A dead mother breastfeeding her child in the midst of the collapsed bricks. In other words, a grey deadbody and a pink healthy baby.

She said it was hard to imagine, at the very last moment of life, a mother reacted in such a way to protect her baby, by putting her nipple into her baby's mouth, with the hope that her babygirl can survive.

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My mum's comment was that she could totally understand what the mother did before her death. She said, when one becomes a mother, whatever things happen, the first thing that come through is always their children. then she continued, "haiyah, you all won't understand wan lar! next time when you become mother then you know."

Adjusting template is such a big deal...

A pinch of humour to spice up your daily routine.....

Poster in skin cancer clinic at Western GH.

In the library toilet

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Since the mentally strenous bedside teaching yesterday, I came home with an extremely worn out self, sat in front of laptop, tried to not sleep so that my sleeping hours don't get screwed up at this CRITICAL time. It's exam again. In 7 days time.

This time really no play play. FAIL? easy peasy, come back resit only loh! But the main problem is we've only got 28 days summer holiday. I really don't want to fly back at the 14th day to resit, and spend the another 14 days holidays alone in this place, without mama's cooking, baby sistas laughters and ikan bakar, fried sotong, mee hun kuey...etc.

Okay, so where was I?

Oh ya, staying awake! So I decided to do something new to my blog! haha. Thought it'll be interesting. ALways see people's blog, got chatbox la, emoticons la, pretty skin la, look so nice! Without any HTML knowledge to begin with, I decided to change Faraway's template. Poor blog. Ever since it was born back in April 2006 out of keboringan, the pinky whitish skin had been stucked there for ever.

Choose template, 1 hour gone. Decide colour codes, another 1 hour gone. Then it was the header uploading bit. Alamak. Headache. Trust me, no fun at all, just to get the correct size to fit nicely into the header column. Somemore this original picture is vertically orientated. Grr! Luckily in the end it all works, if not I might go out and kill someone.

When eveyrthing is set, the last thing was to adjust the margin, spacing and the arrangement.

How ar? Content width too narrow? White margin too little? Sidebar over-streched? Too textbook-ish? .... blah bla bla.

From now on, whenever I see nice blogskin or template, I would know this definitely don't come easily. How these people can be so good in doing html stuffs hor? Ganas.

In total, a grand 5 hours was spent doing this new layout! Hoho. Good way to waste time.

how are you today?

Lack of sleep can make mind goes crazy.

This morning I had to jump off bed at 7.30am to catch the 9am bedside teaching. Nowadays my sleep has not been terribly well. Early morning 6am sun is happily up. By 7am, it can be as bright as 12pm back home already. damn crazy.

So this post is indeed nothing more than a normal day rant. how contradicting i am right? just yesterday i mentioned not going to grumble anymore, but haiyah, wateva lah. too exhausted d.

We had the LoOOngest bedside teaching today, 9am to 2pm. where got so hardworking punya tutor wan. Each person do one history taking, one clinical examination on 2 different patients, 3 of us in the group so in total we had 6 patients encounter in a roll. faint.

first aunty was alright, she's chatty and bubbly. so that's ok.

second aunty was very obese and difficult to examine. not like trying to discriminate. but how to roll her and make sure she dont fall out from the bed la, then hwo to check for abdomen mass when my fingers cannot even press all the way down to penetrate the fats. so that was a bit of hassle.

oh ya, did i introduce before my cute GI surgeon tutor? err, not exactly the cutey sweetie looking type la. he's from Jamaica. Very tall, very thin, look very intelligent yet humble. haha. good motivation to go teachings.

although tutor good looking, sometimes sleepiness can surpass eveyrthing. really too tired to focus. of course la, like who can focus for 5 hours session non stop?? only crazy surgeons have this kind of mental strength.

Tutorial finished, missed free bus also. sienz~~ Matt and I went to clinical skills center and started practicing blood taking and cannulation just to waste some times. then mana tau, do, do, do, missed another free bus. fyi, free buses come every 40 minutes. so, arghhhh!!! another 40 minutes to go. what to do? do other stuffs lor.

such as back side examination on dummy. dun imagine that, yes, it is what you are thinking, put a finger into anus and feel for stuffs. thats waht doctors need to do. actually... quite geli also lor.

then... finally, home noW! on the free bus, Matt being an all time A student, was talking about specialties he wants to go into in the future. GP? Elderly Medicine? Cardio? Surgical?

being extremely exhausted, I uttered...

'i'm not thinking that far. i only want a bed, a duvet and a bowl of warm soup.'

okay, that's enough for today. lala-land time. Night, world!~

Mayday - 小太阳

Prenote: I'm sure you've seen the images of devastation (photos may be overwhelming) caused by the Cyclone Nargis in Burma. Winds and waves have killed ten of thousands of people. Those that survived were left with no clean safe drinking water to live on and water-borne diseases are at high risk of outbreak. Saving life is as simple as giving them clean water to drink. Whitefoxy is neither a public nor a public blog. Today a letter came in post and enlightened me on some interesting facts, about the GBP we're spending here.

Do you know? £20 could buy 15 blankets to keep babies and toddlers warm; £33 could buy 3000 water purification tablets each treating 200 litres of water; £56 could provide a family water kit for 10 families... and so on. If you are able to help, visit UNICEF here and give them as much as you can.

May all being be free from suffering.

原来五月天的作品都很不错。尤其这个在云南拍的mv，很漂亮。看来将来有空还要到这个地方去一趟。那样的石板路，那样的恬适乡居，都是我从小就一直很喜欢的地方。其实这也是当初选到苏格兰来读书的其中一个理由，贪这里够乡下够朴素，和书里常常浮现的那种隐居山水的田园生活还有几分相似。看来我还真不是个都市新人类！

也在今天，和mv里同样的地方，却又是完全另外一回事。看来云南得有一阵子不能再那么悠哉的‘迎客’了。今天，又是一场天灾。中国地震，成都为震央，几千个人死了。才刚刚前几天缅甸刮大风，一下子也带走了上万人。最近都是这样，无端端地球发一下脾气，就得有很多人陪葬。今年真不平安。我不能做什么，但愿世间众生都能远离灾难，一切平安。

这阵子都忙到不行，天天上课温书，也没什么时间上网和写blog。虽然天天都忙，却感觉很充实。原来一样的人事物，换一种心情，就是不一样的风景。看来往外求来的快乐都不长久又累人；心里的一份安稳才是踏实。就像今天在诊所里看见的一个老伯伯，还没进来时，他的医生看了他那份厚厚的病历表，就和我摇头，差一点就能当我们书本里的‘人肉教材’了，几乎我们书里有的毛病他都有了，（对了，最近在读肠胃科，气味都不是很好）是个60岁的老人。我就坐在诊室里等他进来。等了一分钟，可是都没人影。那地方真的不大，病人走进来都不用超过二十步。结果就走了出去探头看看。只见一个不是很瘦，双手都拿着拐杖的老人，一步一步很慢的走来。旁边陪着他的是他太太，很有耐心，一直陪着他的脚步。真的很慢。现在的人都很少有这样的耐心的了。电话一接通不是急着说halo, 就是绿灯一亮就急着踩油门。这样的慢动作除了电影里面生离死别的话画面之外，现实生活中还真是罕见。

最难得的是，我本来想象这病人行动这么不方便再加上那么多的病痛，身体不舒服也很应该，当他好不容易走了进来坐稳了，和我打个照面时，却发现他的面容竟然是多么的从容，释然。他对我问个好，轻轻的微笑说你也需要学习对吗，希望我帮得到你。坦白说，这样的表情，我还真的极其少见。那和一般人的镇定冷静不一样！显然这是另一种层次了。平时生活中要有一点不舒服不顺心，就得开始抱怨不开心了。和这个老人比起来，简直好惭愧！他的大肠已经全部被切除，不再需要像正常人一样去上厕所。吃的喝的都从肚子上开的一个洞孔流进一个塑胶袋中，而这袋子一旦满了，就得清除换个新的。肚皮上看得见一部分的小肠口，被导入袋里。再加上全身神经逐步僵硬造成行动越来越不方便，真的，人真的不该受这样的痛苦。

复诊过程很短，只有五分钟。其中医生对他说的话，他都很认真的听，听完后也没急着回答，总是思考了一阵子后才缓缓的道出自己的意见，大多数都是认同和谢谢的话。过后，他又在结束后慢慢的走出去，这次我并没有急着什么，只是跟在两夫妻的后面，慢慢的把他们送到门口然后说谢谢。

看来有空时，我还得学学怎么用一分钟走平常的二十步。也不知道要到什么时候才能练到像他那样从容的功力。不然谁有空时也来试试吧 =D

Happy-fied

Hey! The sun is OUT!~~~

check this out:

cherry blossom along the meadows

(btw, is that similiar to sakuras in japan? can someone tell me?)

and....what's more...

'a pair of slipper, a shorts and a casual t-shirt' are all it takes to walk you out from the flat!

time to keep away all the thick-heavy-winter-coats in cupboard and don't bother using them till the next season.

=) =) =)


this place can finally feel like home. just like our Malaysia. =) for once, i don't feel like rushing home like mad to avoid the cold windy weather here where everyone looks so monochromous in heavy coats of either black, white or grey, walking with heads buried deep in collars to avoid the strong harsh wind.


Spring is in the air...lah lah lah~~

haha, i've prob gone too high already, not bcoz of alcohol, but SUN!

yah, so winter depression syndrome is real. and sunshine, on the other hand brings ...

SMILE.