Sorry...

is all I feel.

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That aside, here's one good song to recommend, hope you like it. (can ignore the talking bits la... quite mushy wan, the music's nice =)

davidson O' davidson

Davidson's Principle & Practice of Medicine is definitely a thought-provoking book. For that I don't mean constructive thoughts, like teaching me how to treat patient with chest pain nor to handle a heart attack. Instead, they command my body to...

ogle at hot guys


laugh at stupid jokes


game


and also disturbing people...

This evening, when I was staring at Davidson blankly, the idea of flying back during Easter strike me. haha. And so responsively my mind start operating at its top speed, processing on data like,

*monologue*

'okayy, so now what shall we do? yah, buy a ticket, ok. then we need to check when is ur dear godfather putting in money. =)

next next, how bout hols, when are they starting?

hmm... seems like late march. OH march!! that's like 2 months away. haha. so quick. but good... will be seeing you in airport very soon! hehez.

oh wait, how bout mum and dad? how shall I tell them? our med school is giving us an earlier holiday so I decided to come home early?

nonono, that won't do.

Or....or... or... i should just forget about telling them? sneaking quietly back into msia? ooouuuu...notti gal... '

haha. see. how thought-provoking it was. I'm getting quite excited by the whole idea. ^_^ seems like my daydreaming skills has grown better these days... enuff enuff. BACK TO STUDY!

ps: At times, I find it so difficult to tell no matter how badly I wanted to. Something that might already been known by ur whole world, are still doubtlessly best to be left unknown to both of ur closest persons --- parents. How ironic.

Post-Grey Syndrome

I was watching Grey's Anatomy properly, for the very first time. It was actually the seasons 3 finale!... And I saw Burke's wedding vow, soooo touching. I thought the scene was familiar and I could vaguely remember I first saw it from someone's blog. That's adelynn's i think. Well, the scene didn't make much sense last time but now, I'm so in love wiht it! So I went to her site, months by months, browsing thru her archieves and finally found it! =)

At the same time, something from her blog inspired me. It left me wondering wouldn't it be nice to have a brief history of yourself and one day you can look back and see how things change with time? Feelings and thoughts are the fastest changing things in mind and there're always the hardest to catch.

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I thought I want to write down things that I'm now having in mind, about you. so that, if one day I'm too angry to remember, too arrogant to reminisce, or too ego to let go of my pride... there's always something here to gently remind me of how nice you used to be treating me...

There were little moments when...

you drove all the way up to the airport right after your work and pick me from a 24 hours long-haul flight and guess what, I was very excited! to see you again after 3 months of seperation.

you handed me birthday present even though it was supposed to be a month ago, just because we can't celebrate together, and... I was delighted for it's just so not like you, to actually care this much.

you agreed to drive 6 hours to bring my sick grandma home when you were already so exhausted from work simply because I asked you for a favour. Your kindness touched me, very much indeed.

you appreciated my efforts when I tried to cook you a meal and even though things didn't turn out that well.

Cooking using fire on stove just isn't the same as cooking on a hot plate I guess. Hmm.

you apologized after a quarrel, even though I was the one in wrong to not understand your situation - being caught in between your friends and me.

you gave in and made every effort to put the smile back onto my face again, even though it has to do with changing your habits and lifestyles. Although I didn't tell you in face but, I really appreciate that and you know what, it's ok to not do so, isn't loving someone all about loving him as he is?

you looked cute, especially in your sleepy face... like a little puppy. =).

when I confessed my mistake of which I was too wrong in doing, instead of blaming, you said, 'it's alright dear, we all made mistakes. it's really alright. =)' You made me broke down in tears. Touched by your forgiveness for my ignorance and stupidity, on christmas eve, you stole my heart.

you wished me merry christmas with a kiss when the clock struck 12.

when I was bombarding you non-stop with my thousand and one questions, you ignored all of them and held me tight in your arms, so tight that it cleared up all my doubts and make me want to lean on you like this, forever.

you unhesitatingly promised to get a computer & internet to go online to save me on spending money calling you, after I mentioned JPA money crisis; even though it could mean quite a burden to you financially at the moment. I know how difficult it is for you. To many, going online or having a computer might not a big deal, but I understand how far you'd come to reach this point. thanks.

you said it straightforwardly to let me take your new laptop if I like it. you don't mind using my old one. Dear, do you know how touched I was at that point?

you actually felt jealous and thought of the possibilities of losing your gf when someone else was treating her too nicely. hey, you are really cute for such moments if you haven't realised.

I'm really tired now. Time to go to bed and leave all the cardio stuffs for tmr, even it means leaving 4/5 of the book for the rest of 4 days before exams. So much of me being a slacker.

p/s: Considering this blog isn't known to many, but somehow I feel weird about leaving all these stuffs here openly for whoever passerby to read. hmm...locking it up might be an option to make me feel comfortable.

What do you think of these?

Pretty?

Sweet?

Wasteful?

I think most gals find nail-arts are beautiful and elegant.

When I came across them, for don't know what reason, they make me think of fungus growth on nails. *_*

K lar, maybe that's just me too tom-boyish.

Night world, I'm off to bed despite it's just 10pm.

gNite..zzz or Morning!

How does it feel to wake up and find the world's still asleep.....??

stars are still up..

Med school opposite so empty........ @ 4am.

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arghh!! still have not gotten my jet lag, ish!

am off to brush teeth, and find some food next, and continue to unpack, and and, and, what's next? oh ya! STUDY! ..... Cardio exam is next FRIDAY! wake up wake up! time to study woi!

Dubaibai

8 hours earlier,

leaving KLIA

with these heavy weapons

8 hours later,

Morning DUbai! =)

...waiting for the next flight 40 mins later. We are flying to Newcastle!

Adios!~

Packing...

I'm leaving again tomorrow, back to Edin the boring lovely city.

Go back have to pack luggage.

I thought this afternoon is time to start packing. But then, when I was about to start, only I realised there is nothing for me to pack. Alamak! spent the whole holiday didn't buy any stuffs yet.

Time for Giant the hypermarket.....

Wah, that place, really filled with ppl. Red colors and CNY musics everywhere. Walk walk walk, see all new year stuffs only.

End up,

Bought lotsa dried mee to solve my 'noon-alwiz-duno-wat-to-eat' dilemma.

Really nothing to put in already.

... and you've gone back, leaving me pretty moodless now.

When tomorrow comes, things will resume back to normal again. You are back into your 9-5 position again. Whereas, me returning to the '7 weeks one exam' cycles again. Yes, talking about it, another 2 weeks more to my next module exams. This time Cardio stuffs, stuffs I used to have lotsa interest with, but now aiyo, can't remember alot d... ish!

I'm just ranting my evening off writing senseless post to fill up the sudden emptiness. How time flies! 3 and a half weeks ago, it was the long awaited hols; and now, it's time to say goodbye again looking forward to the next holiday.

9pm now, you probably reach back home already. Take care there. Hope you like the apples. =) =) =)

Hey 2008!!!

Hello 2008! Writing new year resolution has been a norm to start a new year, but nah, this isnt my style. I'm more to the impulsive type, don't like being tied down by plans or perhaps it is something I should change in this year. Geez.

This is my 3rd winter escape from Edinburgh back in Malaysia, which also mean I never been to any hogmanay celebration in the Burgh yet, famously known as the world biggest new year celebration. Rumuors says this year will be the last hogmanay due to the Burgh's notorious weather which causes cancellation of the previous two years' events. No insurance company wants to take the risk anymore and therefore no more Hogmanay in the future! Hope it is not true. *_* It will be a shame to live in Edinburgh for 5 years and never been to any Hogmanay right?

Back to stay in Malaysia, on an exciting note, I'm glad that I came back! =) it has not been a wasted trip although it did cost a bomb and now i'm left with almost bankrupcy state. Wuhuhuhu.

This year-end hols has been great so far! Despite the fact that Muar is a boring town with nothing much to do except eating and cafe-ing (I'm inarguably fatter again), I do love spending time here with family and you! There were times you make me angry and feel abandoned, try to push my limit doing things I dislike, ignore me and my 1001 questions. There were also moments where you make me laugh, tolerate my unreasonable demands, hold me in your arms wiping my tears away, tell me not to repeat silly mistakes which end up harming no one but myself etc etc.

Langkawi used to be the Hey family's annual event. When me and my sis were still in secondary school, dad used to bring our whole family there at every year end. Therefore this time, I wasn't particularly excited as I firmly believe nothing else in Langkawi can surprise me anymore. Hehez, who knows!

Mangrove tour! Kilim is one out of the 52 Geoparks in the world. A must must see in Langkawi!

The landscape is very much similiar to stone parks in China's Yunnan/GuiLin where karst stones form in many sizes and shapes, the only difference is that these stones don't rise from grounds but from the water! Quite a cool view!

Pulau Kasut. Thailand is a mere 45 mins boat ride away from this point.

Langkawi is an archipelago rather than a single island. The number of Langkawi island has always been an interesting fact to learn. It is widely known as a cluster of 99 tropical islands. However at low tide, there are 104 islands in total under official record. Some islands tend to disappear at high tide.

Bat cave. Unlike other creatures, bat has no knee-like structure. Due to that fact, they cannot stand but only cling themselves onto walls.

Angmoh tourist: 'these bats are so cool....won't they fall off the wall?' Local Tourguide: 'hmm.... i would say keep your mouth closed.' other angmohs: hahahhahahaha. we all: -_-

According to locals, there are 2 types of eagles on the island, the local Langkawi eagle which is brownish in color and the sea eagle with white fur at the abdomen.

Langkawi is named after the word 'helang'. After the island got cursed by Mahsuri, it was left with 7 generations of poverty. Since eagle species was not involve in the false accusation of the princess, its tribe was not affected by the curse. Over deacdes, these creatures continue to expand in numbers and were dominating the island untill Langkawi was introduced to the world by Tun Mahathir.

At this point, cam no batt, so no more pics =( This fish farm pic was stolen from net. But, this is exactly what we saw la. One thing we find it strange, each time the boatman passed by 'residential' areas (houses that float n spread randomly on the sea), he slowed the speed down and drove through quietly. How considerate =)

Stingray here ganas also. Our guide hold a little fish's head and put it in water. The next moment, his hand came up with this 15kg stingray. He said it bites.

That black thing in hand isn't shit, it's sand, black sand!

Mahsuri's father-in-law was a general who was smart enough to come up with a brilliant idea to stop the Siamese troops from invading the island. He ordered his soldiers to bury all rice supplies in the island underneath this beach and then, burnt them off in hope that when the Siamese troops arrived, the shortage of food supply will forced them to leave the island quickly. In the end, the General's idea was proven a success. The Siamese army didn't fight long and speedily retreated. But very soon after that, the island ran out of food supply and many villagers including the General himself were starved to death! Bodoh!

Rice burning left the pristine white sand black.

Dinner time was my favouriteee! 3 consecutive nights of seafoods, haha. My super crave for sotongs, prawns, fish, lala since Sept were ALL cured! Thai style, Indon style, Kongpoh style, *slurp slurp*, it's heavEn I'm in! =) I wanted to take pictures wan, but too bad it was always when eveyrthing was cleared only I remember my second mission. Hehehez. Good food wor, UK don't have one, how to resist??? ^_^

Bi Yan Hu. A type of calligraphy art in China. I know it's quite random to post this together with Langkawi, but so happen they had this exhibition. So we decided to give it a shot. See the tiny mouth of the bottle? A tiny pen is put in through the mouth and everything we see were painted from inside! Cool huh? The master have to draw everything invertedly so that it appears normal from the outer view. As the bottle's mouth is narrow, it takes time for the paint to dry off before next color can be painted. This one took 3 months to complete and guess how much it cost? If not mistaken, 800 ringgit!!

Group pics. No beach view, left cam behind again. =( So, we left Langkawi with no beach pics. We went to this Cenang beach, accordingly the best beach in Langkawi! Ok la, quite pretty, the atmosphere was an ace! Sunny beach, coco trees, banana boat, jet ski, colorful bikinis, beautiful figures, super chun guys... haha! *Winks*. I turn darker too.

Although it was fun and exciting, I'm still glad that we didn't stay there any longer. Duty-free is a killer idea! It's like driving people to poison themselves slowly and gradually. I guess I won't be happy to see you doing so.

Living with someone 5 days without a break is a challenge! Having no one else but only each other to rely on, there were times for great arguments, conflicts and boredom not to mention tiredness at the end of the days and start finding everything annoying including the loved one.

See, stupid bus broke down! Stranded in Ipoh bus stop for 6 hours. =_=
Langkawi to Muar, Expected travel time: 9 hours. Actual travel time: 18 hours. Can reach London already la!

Sometimes it is good to not think and assume opinions for others, most things if we don't ask we will never know especially what others are thinking. Most of the time, we just gotta sit down and talk, Communication. =)

So, where is our next destination? Backpacking. Where? Vietnam? Sabah? Redang? There is a June to look forward to eh? ^_^


Happy New Year!

p/s: I think this is my very first time to blog properly about my trip. As I blog very seldom recently, there are times when I want to look back and reminisce, I can hardly find anything here. I thought this year I want to keep some record of my daily routine. Does that count as a new yr resolution? =)