> 127日

不知不觉已经那么久

我待在这没有你的冰河期中

即使回忆不断在重播 已经冻结的爱也不会再暖和

把 '我很好' 说得从容 心就必须言不由衷

我犹豫着还要不要承认 我放不开手

127日的分手就有127颗心在痛

一天一点让后悔教会 我怎么能够忽略你感受

你用多少眼泪才找到离开我的理由

也许一直容忍的都是你因为温柔而为我犯下的错

眼中只有你美丽身影 耳朵只搜寻所有关于你的消息

就算我已经往前走 我也徘徊在所有美好往事左右

我的心已死好久它失去了生存的理由

就在你不再爱我了那一天停止跳动

127日的分手就有127颗心在痛

一天一点让后悔教会 我怎么能够忽略你感受

你用多少眼泪才找到离开我的理由

也许一直容忍的都是你因为温柔而为我犯下的错

Then baby,how we end up here you know it's funny

I just miss you so much

I still remember holding you kissing you

I wish I could just see you right now lying in my arms

Maybe I'm waiting for you

I love you

127日的分手留下一个好想你的我

一天一年让时间证明

忘记你是我做的假动作

我用了多少寂寞了解你离开的理由

我没有能挽回你的权利

除非你能了解我心有多痛

Back, AgaiN!~

Just realised I haven't been updating my blog for quite some times already. Didn't wanted to abandon it intentionally, but particularly find nothing to put in here ever since....

Have been back here for 2 weeks already. Life is just as normal as last year. Moved into new flat and yeah, it's sort of nice, at least better than last year's. Stay with 2 Malaysians, of whom I live with for almost 24/7, since we are classmates too. Not too much of privacy anymore. Guess I'm just so scorpio that I love privacy so much to the extend that sometimes I don't seems to mind living in solitude.

Lots of freshers here this year including the juniors and transferred students, many chinese too. Can't seems to find the right mood to mingle around. Just don't really like going to certain events whereby you are supposed to introduce yourself and know more people and after that, don't really remember who is who.

Oh well, think I have just complained too much. On a happier note, in fact living in a sort of permanent flat with no worries of shifting house again for the next 4 years is rather good for I can actually buy lots of stuffs I like to decorate my room. Hehe. Bought a green-blue-purple theme for my room and haha, I've now got a summer in my room during winter, and I'm planning to put up a winter in my room during spring time. =) I know it sounds a bit stupid but nowadays, I seems to find my own entertainment in decorating household. And because of that, Jenn was telling me I'm becoming more and more housewifey, hmmm..... =p

Life really gotta moves on, and my life moves on here in Edinburgh, with daily joys and sorrows, yet without the one I would like to share all these with anymore. How are you recently?

9/9

Last year, this day, hecticly, anxiously and elevenhourly, went all da way to KLIA and left for the boring-yet-scenically-gorgeous Edinburgh, leaving behind family, frenZ, lover-ed (past tense I mean), nice weather, yummy foods ... etc.

Today, will be leaving this land soon again for the 3rd times, yet I'm completely slacking all along leaving behind stuffs un-buy, food un-eat, dishes un-learn, luggage un-pack ... etc. What a contrast.

4 months of summer hoLs! Being the earliest to come back and the latest to leave as usual, strangely however, I don't anyhow feel I'd already live here for 4 months, more like 2 mths instead. Guess most of my days were spent pigging oiNk-oInK away. NOt a productive hols, I know....

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I'm not complaining though, for da lessons I'd been through, either bitter or sweet, were all too precious and worthwhile to be kept for life. Life moves on, people come, people leave. Some leave without a word, some leave expecting a word from you, some don't even notice they are leaving, some leave without having a choice (my deepest condolences to my cousin's family with 3 demises recently). Fate decides it all. Things always change too soon before our realisation. Like some parents leave before their child know how to behave, lover leave before we show them how much we have for them in heart, friends leave before we can laugh our heart out together (wish a fren well who'd been diagnosed with cancer last week).

I begin to appreciate a never outdated law religion has taught us

"live life to the fullest, be thankful, and do cherish for all we have today,

leave tomorrow in God's hand, with faith." .... =)

Ohh ya...I learn something interesting today!

If any of you still remember, in chinese culture, crow is always been intepreted as a bad omen whereas a swallow is regarded highly as a sign of prosperity and happiness. In chinese weddings, people like to put swallow emboideries on like pillow case or bedsheet to symbolise long lasting happiness wishes to the newly wed couple. However, things turn otherwise in scientist's eyes. Crow is proven the most filial birds for they bring food back to feed their aged parents in the nest without fail, in contrast with swallow that can't wait to fly away straight after it has got wings fully developed and won't usually come back again! I thought chinese emphasise on family bonds? :p